The more I write
It's kind of obvious. Everything that I write is obvious. At least to me. Usually when I write it down, it's already thought through, thus obvious. I don't like saying obvious stuff, let alone writing obvious stuff. It just feels - hmm - unnecessary. But, I'm writing again, so what gives?
Two things.
I might be approaching the state in life where I understand that I'm writing only for one person. Myself, obviously. I knew this for the longest time. Even at the age of teens, I had this willigness to write something so that future me would look at and think how different myselves are. There are many versions of journals which start with something like "Hey future me, this is past you." They were definetely from me to me. However, there's always a lingering thought of "and maybe someone else." Maybe my children, if I get to have some. Maybe some historians, if notes are archived just the right way. Maybe heaps of people, if I get to be famous for whatever reason. Yes, maybe someone else. This meant that I shouldn't have any radical opinions. I should take the history into account so that I'm not the bad person. (Of course, I'm not the bad person, but I know that and they don't know that, yet.) Besides, if I'm going to share things with others, they better be some profound ideas. I'm considered a smart person so I should at least not write dumb things. And, definitely, not, obvious things. So, maybe, I just don't write. Not "not write" - more like "write when I can show that I know stuff" write. That happens rarely but it happens. Now, I'm in my "archiving age" where I'm collecting old photos, old notes, old memories and I wish there was more. I wish it happened earlier; I want it to happen now.
The other thing is the technology. As I have almost fully shifted to "AI-assisted" code writing, I'm spending more time... writing. Not coding; writing. I'm writing more documents, I'm sharpening my thoughts, I'm writing instructions for how the problem needs to be solved. The more I write, the more I want to write, the more I'm writing. Having been always good at quick context switching, I'm able to write a few things on a few topics at the time. Not crazy numbers but working on a project with half a dozen of components is good. Likewise, being in remote first companies for the last 5 years got me into the habit of over-writting, note taking and bringing folks to speed from zero. Just as if habits and routines are a thing - writing isn't a proble anymore. It used to be a great burden. I used to dread writing any essay. I'd spend many hours to write a few sentences and I would never proof-read myself so to minimize the risk of finding an issue and needing to write again. Just as if the writing was a chore. Not "writing" as in act of conveying thoughts onto external medium. More like "writing" as smithing characters so that their pattern is plesant to a demanding arbitrar who is never satisfied. I'm not that judge; I couldn't care less. But I knew someone would care more and they'd have an opinion, and that opinion would be of value to someone, maybe me. Well, things have change, the world is different. Writing is just writing. It's just writing. I think of a concept, I'm starting to write, and it clarifies much quicker. I rarely think that I'm writing; I'm often thinking that I'm thinking. Writing isn't a burden anymore. Writing is now thinking and I'm enjoying thinking.
We're living in interesting times. Future me deserves to know about these times and how it affects me. This is on the internet so that I can find it more easily in the future. Also means that someone else can find it. I'm ok with that gamble. Hope you enjoyed wasting your time.